Wednesday, July 21, 2010

WW - Everything happens for a reason

Where to start.... I had a secret that I was going to share with everyone but sometimes life has a way of taking a different path.

I'll start with the fact that for the whole month of July I have been living on the couch; doctors orders. The reason..... I was very sick and had started to bleed; which isn't a good thing when you are pregnant. SURPRISE! Yep that was the secret that I was hoping to share. Don't celebrate yet.

Remember that whole life not always going as planned. Last week during my ultrasound we discovered that the pregnancy was nonviable. It was devastating but I didn't have time to do any crying because the next day I was running around getting everything ready for surgery. Only two days after finding out there was no longer a baby; I was at the hospital getting a D&C.

Now I'm sitting here... numb... but feeling so much better than I have the whole month. It appears that what we thought was the horrid morning sickness I normally get was actually my body trying to fight what was no longer part of me.

Today I'm going to sit on the couch and see what everyone has been up to for the first time in over a month. OH and thank you to all of you that sent emails. I am so sorry I didn't reply but this is honestly the first I have been on the computer for any length of time. So much to catch up on.

20 comments:

  1. I am so sorry. I dont really know what else to say. Everything in life does indeed happen for a reason. Although we may never know or understand the reason. Hang in there. *Hugs*

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  2. How terrible for you. I am so sorry. Losing a pregnancy is an awful experience. ((Hugs)) and strength.

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  3. Very sorry to hear the pain (physical and otherwise) you've been through. I'm sending healing thoughts, prayers and vibes your way. It's good to see your presence back online! I mised those shenanigans!

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  4. So sorry Brooke....it's been a long time, but I've been there. big hugs, and prayers are sent your way.

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  5. Me, Erin and Meagan are so sorry for you and the fam! I so mean that! When I was married and Erin was about 5, my wife at the time had to have a D&C and I will never forget that....and what I mean is the emotional strain the whole situation she went through. So please take care, us three will thinking of you here!

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  6. Oh, Brook, I am so sorry. Thinking of you, and sending prayers your way...

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  7. My heart goes out to you and aches for you. I hope you can regain your strength and find some powerful smiles to get you through this.

    I've missed you. It's good to have you back.

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  8. Brooke, I'm so sad to hear this. I had a similar experience, and it's true that the initial medical emergency to yourself helps keep your mind off of what's happening at first. But I'm sending my hugs for what you've been through, and I missed you here in Blogland.

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  9. Losing a baby is one of the hardest things to ever have to go through. I'm so so sorry. But you're right, everything happens for a reason, even though that doesnt always make us feel better.
    I'm hoping to hear you say that you will be trying again in a few months though! =)
    Thinking of you and praying for you too. Big Hugs and so glad to see you back!!!

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  10. I am so terribly sorry to hear that, really, really sorry. (((hugs)))

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  11. I am so sorry to hear what you and your family is going through. I send you my thoughts and prayers. Any loss is difficult...hugs!

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  12. I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

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  13. I am so sorry for your loss.

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  14. I've been gone for way too long my dear. I was thinking about you while I was gone though. Is that funny, weird, or stalkerish since I have never technically met you? I promise, I am the good type of stalker! ;)

    I am SO very sorry for your loss hun. I know, from experience, how heartbreaking it can be. It's never easy, no matter what the "experts" say. If you need ears to listen to you vent, or well, read your vent, I am here even though I haven't posted in awhile. I hope you are at least feeling better physically. Take care my dear.

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  15. So sorry for you. I know your heartache. Internet hugs!

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  16. I'm so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

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  17. I'm so sorry--hope you are feeling better soon.

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  18. I am so sorry for you. Sending prayers your way.

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  19. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Stay strong. God does things for a reason, even though we may not understand why. Hang in there. I'm sending you lots of hugs and prayers!

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  20. Been thinking of you. Hope all is well! Miss seeing you around!

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