Tuesday, April 12, 2011

The Shenanigans Continue

It's been since October since I last wrote. After finally responding to a few emails asking where I was, I think I'm ready to share with all of you. So be gentle....

First, last year was a crazy year. It started off with two visits to the ER for Lil Kiwi, a monster snowfall, our five year old neighbor keyed our new mini van, losing the baby in July, Grandpa Shenanigans and Black Dog passing away, and then..... the reason I have been hiding...

I think it was just everything just got to me and overwhelmed me so much that I just didn't know what to do. Since July I was keeping a secret from everyone.... Then in October there was another secret... and it was sooo hard to keep things together. It wasn't until Christmas that we finally told DH's family what had been going on. Even now I'm finding it difficult to just come out and say it...

*deep breath*

Okay... In July, when I was feeling sooooo sick the doctors discovered that I have a type of cancer. While I was being evaluated to see if it was a bad version something else happened that put everything on standby... I got pregnant.... Not the best timing and the doctors were well not at all pleased... Now we have to wait until after I give birth to continue testing.

So.... Even though I had tried to keep going; once we found out I was pregnant in October I shut down.

DH has been gone since January for training and doesn't come back until May. It's been just me and the kids. My mind and emotions are ALL over the place. What ifs haunt me... Yet, those of you that sent emails and then kind words gave me the strength to be brave. Thank you all....

Not my most flattering photo but here's the tummy photo of the newest Shenanigans...

7 comments:

  1. Thank you so much for the update! Is there anything I can do to help? I would love to send a package with something to keep Lil Kiwi and Wee Man busy to give you a break, if you are okay with that? We'll be keeping you and your family in our prayers!

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  2. I was missing you and wondering where you were! So glad to hear from you!
    First off, CONGRATS!! I am so excited for you and your new little blessing! When are you due? Do you know gender yet?
    I will be praying for you, baby, family, and your health concerns. I cannot imagine what you are going through, but know we are praying for you and thinking of you. If there is anything I can do for you, please let me know!
    How is Wee Man and Lil Kiwi anyway?!

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  3. Oh, wow, no wonder you have been MIA. You have SO much going on. I am thinking of you and praying for you. Congrats on the new wee-one. I am excited for y'all! As for the cancer, please, please, please keep us posted. I am around if you EVER want to talk. Just email me. { HUGS }

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  4. I'm so sorry I wasn't one of the ones frequently checking up on you! I had a feeling something was up, and I hoped and prayed it would not be another miscarriage.

    I know the cancer part must scare the heck out of you and everyone in your family, but what a bundle of joy in that tummy photo! Know that you are constantly in the thoughts of others who care, even if they don't check in like they should...

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  5. Congratulations on the new addition! (and having hubby come home) thoughts and prayers are with your family as you continue your testing.

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  6. So glad to have you back! Congratulations on your newest family member! Glad your hubs will be back soon! When are you due? I look forward to hearing how are the other kiddos have been!

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